Saturday, 6 March 2010

The dream of a day that never was

Sometime this week we should have been two happy parents preparing a little birthday party. Nothing elaborate, just cupcakes and cookies, and a chance for grandparents to fuss and spoil and spend time.

A chance to celebrate a year of firsts.

A chance for a fun family gathering.

I would have closely watched my Dad with my son, hoping that they knew each other. Trying to fix the images to memory. Hoping there was some strange and wonderful communication between one who was just beginning to understand and one who was losing understanding. Hoping my son would remember.

There would have been hundreds of photos. Little moments captured and treasured.

I grieve for the boy that is missing from this life.

I grieve for the life that we are missing.

George would have been one year old had we travelled to his due date together.


  1. *hugs* I'm so sorry George isn't here with you. :(

  2. (((((hugs)))))
    I hope you find some peace and beauty this week - little gifts from George.Thinking of you as this week continues.

  3. Hugs...he is so missed...

  4. Having cake for George today and loving him- and his parents- from across the ocean.

  5. Oh, I am so sorry. MISSing George with you. Peace.

  6. Sending you lots of hugs honey xxx Missing him for you too,knowing though he has a new Angel friend too xx

  7. Big hugs to you as you make your way through this difficult week. XXX

  8. hey George, we're thinking of you today, on the day that marks your 1st birthday. Miss you sooooo much.

    Sending all our love to your mum and dad, too.


  9. Remembering George today on his day, and sending he, his mom & dad much love. xxoo

  10. Many hugs and prayers to you...many, many hugs and prayers.

  11. oh dear. i'm so sorry. i will be thinking of george with love all week. it is so, so hard. much love to you. xo

  12. I can picture your dream so clearly in my mind. I'm standing there cheering as George, who is being held by his Mummy, blows out that candle. What a special day.
    I so wish it was more than just a dream, my friend.
    All my love to you.
    We miss you, George.


  13. Happy 1st Birthday dear little George.

    I wish that wonderful party was happening this week. I am so so sorry that it's not.

    Thinking of the three of you Barbara


  14. I wish that George was here with you and Ray. I'm sure he would have had a lovely party with his family. xo

  15. Happy first birthday George :)

    Wish you were celebrating in person with your parents.

    (((hugs))) for you Barbara and I'm still holding hope for you.

  16. Thinking of you and sending ((hugs)). I wish you could have that celebration with him here.

  17. Holding you tight, Barb, and remembering George with you.

  18. *hugs* Thinking of you.


  19. I had similar thoughts myself just this morning. It's so hard, and I'm so sorry.

    It's amazing how babies who are here only have one important day. But the babies who aren't - they have two. Their birthday and what should have been their birthday. And I guess that very fact says it all.


  20. Hugs. Happy Birthday George.

  21. Happy birthday to your dear sweet boy.

  22. Happy birthday George. Peace and comfort to you.

  23. I haven't been on reader much lately, I am so sorry that I missed George's day. Sending you extra love and support. I wish he was here with you, blowing out his candles. It all feels so unfair.

    By the way, and this is totally unrelated...your cakeythingamawhatchacallit looks delish!



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