Don't die, don't die, you can't leave Ray on his own.and one slightly less huge but still rather large thought that I think I probably conveyed to the surgeon in some desperate manner or other:
Please don't break my uterus, we need it.This was quite a revelation to me, I've always felt a great deal of empathy and yet I've always been quite selfish but now there's finally someone, a tiny lost someone, the promise of someone and something to take myself away from me me me. Thank you George. Thank you Ray. Thank you future hope of baby to be.
Today I'm making lists.