Another day at work. The feeling of dread began before I went to bed last night and came back to me before I got up this morning. The feeling is worse than the doing of course but I hope it goes away soon.
Boss was off today, I had the pleasure of Colleague all to myself. It's easier when one of them is off, they can't exclude me.
Colleague asked me how I was finding it. "Finding what?" I asked, was this a glimmer of compassion? "Being back at work, are you tired?" She quickly answered with a don't mention babies look on her face. "Yes, I'm tired" I said.
I was sorting through some stored bags of teddies, looking for valentines bears for a display when I came across a little blue teddy still in it's gift box. "It's a boy!" shouted it's teddy jumper. Breathe. Just. Breathe.
I got through another day. I don't want to get through another day. I want to enjoy my days.
One day I will. Soon soon soon please.
Today I feel subdued.