...grief grabs me by the throat and squeezes so very hard.
I was just looking through my photos to see what needed backing up and clicked on George's ultrasound at 16 weeks 5 days and almost howled with sadness.
It so is NOT fair, and unfortunately it might continue to happen. For me, over a year out, I still am sometimes almost paralyzed by grief... and usually without much warning. It does get a little easier to handle, but you will always miss your sweet George.
It is so unfair, I am so sorry. I have a folder on my laptop that contains the u/s photos, and I havent had the courage to look at them. There was so much hope.
George is so beautiful. And no it's not fair. Not one bit.
I have a folder on my PC called Babies and inside I have separate folders for our little ones, with folders inside of u/s and pics. It still amazes me that they arent with me still...
Oh sweetie, I know. It is just not f'g fair.
ReplyDeleteNo it's fg not, not one bit of it!
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It's not. I am so sorry.
ReplyDeleteNOT fair at all.
ReplyDeletexoxo
It so is NOT fair, and unfortunately it might continue to happen. For me, over a year out, I still am sometimes almost paralyzed by grief... and usually without much warning. It does get a little easier to handle, but you will always miss your sweet George.
ReplyDeleteI hope the rest of your day was easy on you.
if just reading this post made my heart ache, I can only imagine how you feel. I am so, so sorry. xxx
ReplyDeleteIt sucks!!!! Thinking of you and George...
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It's not fair, I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteNo. It sure f'ing isn't.
ReplyDeleteLove you.
I wish I could bring him back Barbara, I really wish I had that superpower xo
ReplyDeleteIt definitely isn't fair.
ReplyDeleteugh... posted too quick. I hope in time those stolen moments looking at u/s bring more bittersweet peace than heart wrenching sadness. :(
ReplyDeleteYeah, it's not fair at all.
ReplyDeletei am howling with you. it's not fair.
ReplyDeleteIt is so unfair, I am so sorry. I have a folder on my laptop that contains the u/s photos, and I havent had the courage to look at them. There was so much hope.
ReplyDeleteGeorge is so beautiful. And no it's not fair. Not one bit.
ReplyDeleteI have a folder on my PC called Babies and inside I have separate folders for our little ones, with folders inside of u/s and pics. It still amazes me that they arent with me still...
I am so sorry. Truly, I am.
It isn't.
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