On my own this afternoon as Ray is doing computer stuff for someone. I went out to get milk, bread, chocolate. Just the essentials.
Walking home I started to feel... sad. It came from nowhere. I wasn't thinking sad thoughts, I was concentrating on not putting any weight on my painful heel (will be discussing it with Dr Compassion tomorrow). Small tears welled in the corners of my eyes and that oh so familiar feeling of emptiness whooshed through me.
Spring is definitely in the air over here. That smell of damp earth and green things beginning to grow permeates the air. The smell of potential. My baby would have been a spring baby born in March. Sometimes I think I'll be ok when 5th March comes around and other times I think I'll fold up and blow away in the breeze.
I'm ok now. I know I'm understood in here. And when Ray gets back I'll tell the person out here who understands.