Friday, 2 July 2010

Thank you

I am absolutely overwhelmed by your kind messages of love and support. You are wonderful.

I am having an ERPC this afternoon: Evacuation of Retained Products of Conception. Horrid acronym, horrid horrid.

I couldn't bear to wait to miscarriage "naturally".  I am just so afraid of bleeding.

I still feel pregnant. They gave us two scan pictures of Little Poppet all curled up.


I don't know what happens next.



28 comments:

  1. I wish I could answer that. One thing is for sure though, you are both loved the world over and that love is going to keep coming your way.
    I'm still so very sorry, Barb. Been thinking of you all day.
    xo

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  2. Thinking of you and Ray. I'm so very sorry. Sending love and strength to you both for this afternoon and beyond. x

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  3. I wish i could say something to make you feel better honey. I understand you not wanting to miscarry naturally, I fear the blood thing too, sooo much.
    please know that we are ALL thinking about you today, just like we did yesterday and just like we will be tomorrow and the day after that...... you and Ray.
    As for what happens next Barb, it will take a little time....
    xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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  4. I know, sweetie. I had a very similar procedure in January and I know exactly what the leadup is like- still feeling pregnant when I knew what was about to happen is so confusing and awful and surreal. I am sending you strength and gentle wishes today, and I will be here on the other side. Always.

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  5. Oh, love...

    Next you'll be sore and worn out for a few days, and mourning for many more. Next, you'll turn to friends and loved ones for much needed help and support. Next, you'll keep waking up every morning secure in the knowledge that you are loved, and that you are not alone.

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  6. I did not want to be typing this...I am sorry, Barb.

    May you and Ray find some strength somehow.

    Thinking of the little lost poppet too.

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  7. I am so sorry. Thinking of you and your family. It is so unfair when we don't get to hold onto the little ones we began carrying - no matter how long we carried them for it's so unfair. I know these words aren't much but I am so sorry.

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  8. I wish I had the words to express what you need to hear. All I can say is that I am sorry. Thinking of you and praying for your angel little poppet.

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  9. No no no. I am so sorry Barb and Ray. I just have no words. I am just so very sorry to hear this. You and your wee poppet are in my thoughts. xoxo

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  10. Thinking of you today.

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  11. I am just so very sorry. So very sorry.

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  12. i am so sorry barb. i'm thinking of you all. sending gentle hugs. xxxx

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  13. I hope that your ERPC is physically straightforward. Emotionally - I know it's a whole other story. With so much love.

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  14. Sending you strength, your in my prayers.

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  15. Echoing what everyone else has said and thinking of you ~

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  16. I wish I had a roadmap for you -- I know I longed for one myself when I was in your shoes. I think you're doing the right thing from the medical standpoint, even if that knowledge doesn't help you at all (I went the other route and it was brutal. It was insult on injury.). What happens next is after a while you'll feel the desire to start putting one foot in front of the other. And though the pain will never completely subside, one day you'll feel that it's smaller -- you can fit it in your pocket rather than bear its weight with every step. I wish there were an easier way. Wish I could say something truly meaningful that would take away the pain for you. I am truly sorry for your loss.

    (here from LFCA)

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  17. It's such a harsh term - they all are - for when we lose our precious babies. The medical terms are just so cold. I am still so sad for you & Ray - I really, really hoped and prayed that this would be your rainbow...your light at the end of a long, dark tunnel. Thinking of you & Ray all the time....

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  18. Thinking of you very much today, Barb. I had that procedure back in 2008 for a missed miscarriage and I remember how terrible it was to walk into that room and have an ultrasound for a baby with no heartbeat. My heart breaks thinking of what you and Ray are living with right now, and I'm sending so much love.

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  19. I am so sad. Barb, this hurts so much. I know so much more for you, but we are hurting for you... with you. So much love, dear friend, from our side of the ocean.

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  20. I am just so, so saddened that you are enduring this...and my heart just wept at the pictures of Little Poppet curled up. Just remember that Little Poppet knew nothing but love and joy and hope in his or her brief little life...I'm so sorry for you and keeping you close in my heart.
    xoxo

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  21. I am so sorry. This is just not fair.

    If you have any specific questions about what to expect from the procedure, please don't hesitate to e-mail me. soupgirl79@aol.com

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  22. I am so sorry, Barb. This is crushing. Sending so much love to you and Ray. xoxo

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  23. that's what my last scan pic is like. all curled up. it's so so unfair.

    be gentle with yourself as you recover.

    i'm thinking of you all. you, ray, george, and your little poppet.
    xxx

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  24. God, I'm so sorry. This is beyond horrible. Just know you are so loved, and he/she will be remembered by all of us.
    Let me know if I can help in any way. A listening buddy from across the pond, anything.
    xoxo

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  25. I am so sorry. Loving you...and Ray, and George, and little Poppet.

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  26. I'm so very sorry for your loss & the pain your family is again enduring. We just lost our daughter at only 23wks of pregnancy about a week ago & know all too well the depths of such sadness. Abiding with you & praying for strength for both you & your husband.

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