Wednesday, 30 June 2010

Little Poppet is lost

At the scan today there was no heartbeat.

Little Poppet measured about 8 weeks.

We are destroyed.



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  1. Anonymous30 June 2010 at 13:55

    I have no words. I have nausea, tears, heartbreak. Oh God. I am so sorry. I am utterly distraught for you. Please, please... if there is anything I can do...

    You are in my prayers and thoughts every second today. It is so unfair. I am furious at God, at the universe on your behalf.

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  2. Rachel30 June 2010 at 14:08

    my dear, i'm so sorry. i have no words. thinking of you and wishing this life weren't so f*cked up and unfair. sending love.

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  3. Anonymous30 June 2010 at 14:13

    oh my, lovely, I am so sorry. xxx

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  4. Angel's Mummy30 June 2010 at 14:13

    speechless. My heart breaks for you and Ray. No words will make you feel better. This is SO unfair. I just do not know what else to say... except for , we are all here for you..
    Poppet & George are together Barb, forever.
    I am so truly sorry.
    Hugs and love to you both

    Angel's Mummy xx

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  5. MumMumMum30 June 2010 at 14:39

    Oh Barbara, I am so very very sorry. Thinking of you and Ray.
    xx

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  6. Sophie30 June 2010 at 14:47

    Oh Barbara. I am so devastated for you. Thinking of you and sending you many hugs.

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  7. bir30 June 2010 at 14:54

    Oh no, Barb.. oh, my friend. I'm so, so sorry to read your news of Little Poppet. Devastated for you, in every way possible. Thinking of you, and feeling some of what you're going through, after our own loss of little angel at 9 weeks earlier this year.
    Sending you and Ray much love as you farewell your Little Poppet... ♥

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  8. Jenni30 June 2010 at 15:59

    i'm so sorry, sweetheart. so so so sorry. :(

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  9. Anonymous30 June 2010 at 16:12

    My heart aches for you, I know the feeling of having the joy and excitement of a dream finally coming true only to be ripped out from underneath you. You are in my thoughts and prayers for the strength to get through yet another difficult loss.
    Jody

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  10. Carly Marie30 June 2010 at 16:20

    There are know words to describe how devastated we are for you and Ray Barb. We are so sorry. We love you xxx

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  11. loribeth30 June 2010 at 16:28

    I'm so sorry, Barbara. :(

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  12. .daily.amos.30 June 2010 at 16:37

    I am so, so sorry Little Poppet is gone. I am sure you are both feeling utterly lost right now. My heart goes out to you both.

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  13. leahjane830 June 2010 at 17:19

    I am so, so sorry. You are in my heart and prayers.

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  14. Beth30 June 2010 at 17:24

    oh no.
    oh no.
    oh barb.
    i really thought this would be the baby that got to live.

    sending love and hugs.
    i wish i could do more.
    xxx

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  15. still life angie30 June 2010 at 17:57

    I cannot cry enough tears right now. Barb, I am just so sorry. Holding both you and Ray in my heart. Little poppet was loved by all of us. xo

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  16. Anonymous30 June 2010 at 18:08

    Oh no... I'm so sorry for you guys. My heart goes out to you. Sending hugs your way...

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  17. Catherine W30 June 2010 at 18:15

    Oh no. I am so very, very sorry. x

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  18. ezra'smommy30 June 2010 at 18:56

    Oh Barb. I let out an audible scream upon reading your news. So much love to you & Ray

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  19. Lea30 June 2010 at 18:58

    Barb, there are no words.... unimaginable. I am so, so sorry.... xx

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  20. Amy30 June 2010 at 19:06

    I'm so sorry. I was hoping along with you and everyone else that this little poppet would grow into a big poppet baby....

    so, so, so sorry.

    (((((hugs)))))

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  21. AnnaBelle30 June 2010 at 19:23

    No no no!

    My heart breaks for you Barb. I am so very sorry.

    This is so unfair.

    Thinking of you and Ray

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  22. Elizabeth30 June 2010 at 19:33

    Oh no, Barbara. I am so very sorry and that seems, faced with the magnitude of what you have been and are going through, so inadequate.

    May you feel in some small way, protected at this terrible time. Sometimes all we can do is endure from one moment to the next.

    My thoughts are with you.

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  23. Michele30 June 2010 at 19:40

    oh Barb... I am crushed for you. I am crying and just wish I could make this better.

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  24. Angela30 June 2010 at 19:47

    Made my way over here via a fellow BLM blog. I am so sorry for your loss. Life is very unfair sometimes. Thinking of your little ones, George and Little Poppet, today.

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  25. Heather30 June 2010 at 21:09

    so sorry

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  26. Fireflyforever30 June 2010 at 21:40

    No.No.No ... I am so sorry and heartbroken for you both. Thinking of you and Ray and George and little Poppet.

    It's not fair.

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  27. Anonymous30 June 2010 at 21:44

    I am so sorry, Barb.

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  28. Helen @ The Beading Lady30 June 2010 at 21:55

    Oh nooooooo!
    I am so sorry Barb ~ it's not fair.
    (hugs) for you and Ray.
    xxx

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  29. Anonymous30 June 2010 at 22:13

    So sorry for your loss. Words are inadequate. Sending much love.

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  30. Maddie30 June 2010 at 23:02

    I am so sorry. There's not really anything I can say except I'm heartbroken for you.

    Maddie x

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  31. Hope's Mama30 June 2010 at 23:10

    Oh Barb. This is the worst possible news to wake to. Sorry isn't enough. I wish I could take away all your pain.
    I will love and remember Little Poppet for the rest of my days. Resting peacefully with George.
    Love and hugs to both you and Ray. Crying in my cereal :(
    xo

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  32. Kara's Mom30 June 2010 at 23:46

    Oh Barb - I am so sorry for you and Ray. Little Poppet was such a rainbow in the dark for so many of us. I am so, so sorry and wish there was something, anything I could do to take away this pain. xxoo

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  33. Lori30 June 2010 at 23:59

    NO!! I am just so heartbroken for you, I don't even have the words except for ones of anger and injustice. I just DO NOT UNDERSTAND. And I am so, so, so sorry for you. Words are just not enough to describe. You and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers...I'm so very sorry.

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  34. Isla's Mommy1 July 2010 at 00:11

    Oh Barb, I am so, so sorry for you and Ray. This is not fair and not right. Today is the one year anniversary of Isla's death. I hate June 30th. I want to fly across the pond and hug you and cry with you. Please know Tim and I are thinking of you both and sending you all our love. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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  35. MaryBeth1 July 2010 at 00:28

    this is not fair.

    i am so sorry, barb.

    xx

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  36. A New Beginning1 July 2010 at 00:58

    I am so very sory for you and your husband.

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  37. Danielle1 July 2010 at 01:27

    Sweetie,

    You know you and Ray have been in my thoughts and my heart all day. I am destroyed right along with you by this- I know only too well where you and Ray must be right now. Wishing that all the love you have from all of us could make this not so. I am here to scream with you, to cry with you, to walk with you through this darkest of times. Love and strength and so much more from Alan and me to you and Ray. Pardon my indelicacy, but this fucking sucks.

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  38. HereWeGoAJen1 July 2010 at 01:53

    I am so sorry. I will be thinking of all of you.

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  39. Erika P1 July 2010 at 02:09

    Oh, Barb. What sad, sad news. I'm so very sorry. Holding you and Ray and George and Little Poppet close in my heart and thoughts. Lots of hugs for you.

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  40. Anonymous1 July 2010 at 02:12

    This is the most heartbreaking news. I am so very, very sorry. x

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  41. Anonymous1 July 2010 at 03:48

    oh barb. I am so sorry. I understand. I too lost my rainbow. there are no words. it is so unfair. nancy

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  42. Paige1 July 2010 at 04:30

    Barb, I am so very sorry. This is so unfair and I'm devastated for you and Ray. Remembering both your babies and sending much love.

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  43. Lindsay1 July 2010 at 05:01

    Oh, no.I am sorry there are no words, I can't fathom the pain in your heart..

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  44. Sarita Boyette1 July 2010 at 06:44

    I am a stranger to you - but also a BLM. I wanted to express my deepest sympathy to you for your losses. (((HUGS)))

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  45. Sky1 July 2010 at 06:45

    Oh! I am utterly devestated for you Barb and Ray.
    Please be gentle on yourself. xoxox

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  46. Stephanie Jean-Louis1 July 2010 at 09:27

    Oh no, no, no . . . I am so sorry. Thinking of both of you ~

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  47. Julie1 July 2010 at 09:32

    I am so sorry that Little Poppet is lost. From the comments I understand that many tears are being shed for you and Ray and George and Poppet around the world on this day, and here also.

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  48. Kathi1 July 2010 at 09:47

    Barbara. Life is just so unfair, Im so sorry your little Poppet died :( My heart is breaking for you.

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  49. ines1 July 2010 at 10:38

    i'm screaming and crying with you. raging with the unfairness, and feeling so helpless so lost so sorry. i send you all my love and wrap my arms around you, wanting to hold and support you, for you are such a wonderful person.

    ines xxoo

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  50. Anonymous1 July 2010 at 10:52

    I just stumbled across your blog. Without reading anything else, or knowing anything else about you I can say that my heart hurts for you & Ray right now. I'm sorry that happened to you.

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  51. Jacinta1 July 2010 at 11:00

    Oh no, no, no, no. I am so sorry and I wish I had something better to say.

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  52. Anonymous1 July 2010 at 12:59

    I am so very sorry for the loss of your little poppet. Sending much love and healing thoughts your way.
    Kerry

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  53. Diane1 July 2010 at 13:03

    Barbara & Ray...Sending prayers your way. I am so deeply saddened with this news and pretty much speechless right now.

    Diane

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  54. after iris1 July 2010 at 13:34

    I'm so, so sorry to read this. So much love to you both x

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  55. Mirne1 July 2010 at 14:41

    I'm so sorry. xxx

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  56. Martha@A Sense of Humor is Essential1 July 2010 at 15:30

    Dear Barbara and Ray,
    I am so, so sorry and am thinking of you and your lost babies with love.- Martha

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  57. Bluebird1 July 2010 at 18:22

    Oh my gosh. You are effing kidding me. I am sick to my stomach and in tears for you. . . which I know can't begin to compare with what you must be feeling.

    I am so sorry honey. So, very, incredibly sorry for you and Ray both. Holding you in my thoughts. ((Hugs))

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  58. Heather1 July 2010 at 19:39

    Oh Barb!! I am so sorry. There aren't enough tears in all the world for you and Ray.

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  59. Debby@Just Breathe1 July 2010 at 21:08

    ((HUGS)) I am so sorry. My heart and thoughts are with you. Please know that I care and will be praying for you.

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  60. Snarky Belle1 July 2010 at 21:24

    I am so very sorry!! No words can express how my heart is breaking for you and Ray. My tears are flowing with yours and those of everyone who has written. Just as George will forever be remembered, so will your precious Poppet. Keeping you and yours close in my thoughts and my heart. Love you.....

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  61. Lisette1 July 2010 at 22:17

    I just found your blog from All the little ponies, I am so sorry. Your in my thoughts and prayers.

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  62. Anonymous2 July 2010 at 00:13

    I am so, soooo sorry. ((HUGS))

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  63. T2 July 2010 at 00:22

    So very sorry. Precious Poppet. So sorry Barb and Ray.

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  64. crystal theresa2 July 2010 at 02:21

    oh barb... i am so sorry. i wanted so bad for your Poppet to be your earth baby. you and ray and your two babies are in my thoughts and prayers. my heart is aching with you. i don't understand why there are those of us who aren't allowed to hold our rainbows babies in our arms. ((hugs)).

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  65. Jo2 July 2010 at 03:52

    So heartbreaking. There are no words.


    Jo

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  66. Jessica2 July 2010 at 04:04

    I am so very sorry for your loss. (((HUGS)))

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  67. Suz2 July 2010 at 05:19

    I am so very sorry Barb. My heart is broken for you xx

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  68. Illanare2 July 2010 at 07:32

    Here from non-geordie mum's blog - I am so very sorry for your loss.

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  69. Cheek2 July 2010 at 15:17

    Here from LCFA. I'm so sorry for the loss of Little Poppet. I will never understand why the universe can sometimes be so cruel. Thinking of you and your family.

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  70. ..al2 July 2010 at 15:17

    It is physically hurting me to read this. It scares me to hell to know that it could happen to me as well.

    Oh Barb, this is horrible....I thought this was meant to be.

    Am so sorry.

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  71. Anonymous2 July 2010 at 15:22

    I am so sorry for another loss. I will scream for you and pray your day in the sun comes soon.

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  72. LittleWanderer2 July 2010 at 15:40

    Oh no no no :(
    I'm so so sorry, I hope you are keeping it together xx

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  73. mia2 July 2010 at 16:50

    I am just seeing this now~am absolutely heart broken for you both. Thinking of you as always. xoxo

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  74. Adele2 July 2010 at 17:02

    Here from LFCA. I am so very sorry for the loss of your Poppet. I know that one loss compounds another and that sometimes it is so impossibly hard to keep going under all of its weight. I am so very sorry.

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  75. Roccie2 July 2010 at 17:13

    I am so broken with your news. I imagine you were guarded after your loss of sweet George. I cannot begin to understand why this would happen again.

    We think we have paid the price and another bomb drops. I am so very sorry for your loss.

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  76. Unknown3 July 2010 at 04:13

    Oh I am soooo sorry barbara ..my heart aches that you would have this happen again. It is jus not fair ...I am sooo so sorry xxxx

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  77. Googies Girl3 July 2010 at 08:16

    My heart is broken and my face is stained with tears. I am so very sorry. This just isn't fair and I'm so upset to hear this news. Big huge hug to you and Ray. Always thinking of you.
    ♥ Marian

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  78. Stacie3 July 2010 at 17:07

    I am so, so sorry, Barb. Much love to you.

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  79. Holly3 July 2010 at 18:05

    Oh no. :'( I am so sorry. ((hug))

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  80. Mrs.Wood21263 July 2010 at 18:54

    I am so sorry! May God grant both you and your husband Peace!!

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  81. Justine L4 July 2010 at 03:39

    here from LFCA. I'm so sorry to hear this ... know that there are so many people thinking about you right now and sending all of our love and support. It's not fair.

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  82. Elana Kahn4 July 2010 at 05:34

    Oh no!! I am so, so sorry!

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  83. Kristin4 July 2010 at 06:32

    Here from Woman Anyone's blog...I am so damned sorry. I remember the pain and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

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  84. Beautiful Mess5 July 2010 at 07:57

    Here from LFCA and Wise Guy's blog, please know I'm thinking about you and sending you lots of love.
    *HUGS*

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  85. Rachael6 July 2010 at 06:57

    Barb,

    There is nothing I can say. I am so, so sorry. I am sending you love and and enormous hug.

    xxx

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  86. Ya Chun20 July 2010 at 22:14

    oh, Barbara, it's just wrong. I am so sorry.

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  87. Leila's mommy15 October 2010 at 19:47

    oh Barbara, i am so very behind on blogs and did not hear the news. i am so very sorry for your loss. sending you all my love today. xo

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