Weird feelings of relief

My period started today. Day 25. Almost normal cycle length. It's usually 27 days or thereabouts but anything not 44 days I'm counting as normal. Normal normal normal. Whoop.

Oh hang on weren't we trying to conceive?

Disappointment rapidly follows relief. I didn't really expect it this month, I don't know why, but I didn't. I hoped and dreamed a bit but not too much at all; just the blink of a hopeful what if.

"You're not quite yourself today are you?"
"Aren't I? I thought I was doing quite well, I've got those hormones under control eh?"
"Yeeees... "
"Oh, I thought you hadn't noticed?"
"Yeeeeees..."

Bloody hormones.

Day 1.