It takes me a moment to catch up with my own head.
I'm not feeling so gloomy today. Thank you for your kind words of support and general gloom lifting vibes.
I think it was/is a combination of things not the least of which is the fact that I'm almost entirely 100% sure that I'm ovulating at the moment and I'm hopeful, scared, nervous, pessimistic and a whole host of hormonal feelings that seem to be circling around my head. ~~more conception vibes please!~~
Do you get crampy when you ovulate? Grumpy? Gloomy? Filled with portents of doom?
We conceived George in June last year and I'm not sure how I'd feel if we got pregnant next month. It would be terrifying to be at the same stage in the same month that we lost him. I'm not sure how I would cope. But on the other hand I wouldn't want to "waste" a cycle. Woo, there's another gloom inducing thought.
Time seems to be getting away from me these days. I want to be pregnant now. I want to turn the clock back. I want to be 10 years younger. I want George.