I don't want to be a member of the dead baby club any longer.
The membership fee is too high and the benefits are scant. Member participation involves too much pain and it makes me cry for other lost baby Mums. We are too too too many and it's all just so wrong. So very very wrong. My heart breaks a little bit more for each and every one of us each and every time I sit down to read or type.
Being a member marks you for pity. People who know look at you differently. They say stupid things. Or they say nothing at all. Why do they ignore my son's existence? Please.
And it makes me cry for my George who isn't growing inside my belly where he should be.
But it's a lifetime subscription with no get out clause so I'm stuck here.
Today I'm fed up. (understatement)