Thursday, 20 November 2008

Anger

I have an angry feeling today.

I'm angry that I'm still suffering the after effects on my body of losing George and I'm angry at this body that let me and my son down so badly.

I'm angry at all the couldn't-care-less mothers that I see dragging screaming babies around. Don't they understand the preciousness of the lives they have carried or the responsibility of care that they have?

I'm angry at all the happily pregnant women who have no idea how unfair it that they get to have a healthy live baby or how much pain I feel at seeing them.

And I'm angry at all the "friends" at work who haven't bothered to call or even text.

Today I'm not great.

6 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry your having one of those days. As for the idiots who don't call or write (as I like to call them) it hurts frankly. Sometimes I ponder taking up voodoo to exact revenge.

    I hope you realize you have new friends who understand how you feel and we`re here for you.

    Hang in there.

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  2. I'm a little calmer now. Writing it down helps.

    Thank you Monique for being my new friend in this pain that will hopefully turn to joy one day.

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  3. Seems we're all doing the angry thing. I'm glad writing has helped you feel better. It is working a treat for me, too. So glad I took the plunge.

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  4. I hope you find comfort in writing. It has helped me immensely. I am so sorry for the loss of your George. I hope you get to feeling better physically - the emotional healing takes a bit longer.
    Stay strong...

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  5. Maybe a text could seem crass. Perhaps a call would leave someone stuck for words, scared to upset you further with some poorly chosen words.

    Alternatively they are just insensitive b*****ds.

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  6. Any words, even ill chosen ones would probably be better than a deafening silence!

    I've had texts that just said, "thinking of you" and I've spoken to the friends who've said' "how are you?" and really wanted to know.

    And I've found new friends in the lost baby club who understand.

    And I think I've found the friends that are real.

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