Stop it

Yesterday we were waiting in a small queue and the couple in front of us were trying to stop their son (about 8) from "cheating" and skipping to the front. The man turned to us and "ha ha, you should get a kid, it makes everything take twice as long ha ha". Ha. Ha? I think we both gave back a blank look and the man didn't say anything else.

"I could think of several responses to that" I said.
"Me too."

But we don't speak these responses because we're polite English people and we don't let "outsiders" into the world of babyloss most of the time. It's too horrific and we don't want to ruin someone's day, or their lunch, or their ride on a victorian cliff railway by letting them know that yes, we would "get a kid" if we could, in fact we have tried but our kids died long before they could be amusingly annoying.

Really, dear Universe, that wasn't fair. Stop it please.

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I had two dreams about pregnancy tests and the results of which over the last couple of days.

In the first dream the result was positive and then Ray shook my hand. In the second dream two nights later the dip-in-the-pee stick was absolutely the longest dip-in-the-pee stick in the world, metres and metres of dip stick and I ran along side the stick as the pee was travelling along it. It seemed to take forever but eventually I got to the end where I found the second line.

And then I woke up from the dream, went to the toilet and my period started.

We weren't trying, I wasn't hoping or expecting. So really. Seriously. Subconscious. For my sanity's sake. Stop it!