Friday, 20 May 2011

The weepies

I haven't had a "good" cry for a while now. Until this morning, when the worst-cramps-ever-in-the-history-of-the-world-ever-no-really-that-bad finally got the better of me after two days and I gave up holding it back.

"I have *sniff* horrible cramps *sob* it's been a year since I was *sniffle* pregnant *wail* and *sniff* I am SO sick *drip* of *sob* being *sob* disappointed."

Soft touches, kisses and hugs brought me back to sanity and snuggling always makes me feel better.

"I don't like it when you're upset Poppet"

"Neither do I *sniffle*"

"But it's good to get it out"

"S'pose *hic* so"

"It'll be all right"

"It better be..."

And it better be because who wants to live the rest of their life disappointed?

I remember after losing George, one lady from work "comforting" me by expressing her sorrow at my "great disappointment". No, dear, I'm grieving the loss of my son.

*sigh* Do excuse my rambling.



8 comments:

  1. I'm sorry, Barbara. I wish there were more to say. Sending you so much love and hoping for better days.

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  2. Love to you, Barb. Remembering your babies always. xo

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  3. It will be ok, because you have a great guy by you.

    I'm sorry that your dream has not come true and that George and Little Poppet are not with you.

    And I think it is fine to feel disappointed about that and to have a good cry.

    (((((hugs)))))

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  4. I know. Oh, I know. And I am so sorry with you.

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  5. All my love to you, dear friend. Huge hugs, big warm cups of tea.
    xo

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