Saturday, 25 July 2009

A dream

I was practising a visualisation technique last night in bed. I relax and breathe deeply, I imagine a beam of light connecting me to the centre of the earth, I imagine a bubble in front of me and ground it to the earth too, I invite my baby-to-be to enter the bubble and see what happens. Until last night nothing has happened. I'm very easily distracted and often catch myself thinking about mundane day to day things.

I saw dark cascading rainbow lights behind my eyelids. It was beautiful. I relaxed and enjoyed the show.

I saw George as a young man. I couldn't see his face clearly but I knew it was George and told him I loved him and he was beautiful. He laughed and asked how I knew when I couldn't see his face. I told him I just knew. He was full of fun and joy whilst I was quite serious. He was just out of reach.

And then I noticed another much smaller boy hiding behind George and peeping out at me. He was scared to come to me, scared that I wouldn't keep him safe. I promised him and I promised George that this boy would be safe.

George laughed and ran, leapt and took flight and then shattered into millions of pieces. For a moment I felt horror and then I realised that he had just gone back to be with the elements of the universe. My son is made of star stuff.

I'm not sure if I was dreaming or this was a figment of my over active imagination but it was lovely and quite interesting.


12 comments:

  1. How beautiful ~ it gave me goosebumps.
    xxx

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  2. That is a beautiful vision.

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  3. So beautiful. It has brought tears to my eyes.

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  4. Lovely, Barbara. George is close at hand and heart. Thank you for sharing your beautiful son.

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  5. Beautiful vision Barbara.

    Want to know a secret? This month, I've been dreaming about a new little one for you, too. Maybe all those visions are trying to tell u something.

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  6. A special gift from George, beautiful.

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  7. So beautiful to read and I bet even more beautiful to see!

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  8. This is a beautiful dream, and I hope it means something positive is coming your way. However, I want you to know that I don't think your future babies are afraid that you won't keep them safe. That isn't what happened to your sweet George either. You did all you could, and he knows that. The failing was not yours.

    I hope you are well, and healing.

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  9. very lovely... thank you for sharing it...

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  10. "My son is made of star stuff."
    <3 :) <3 :) <3
    that made my heart smile. that's all i can say.

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