16w5d

I heard baby's heartbeat this morning at my 16 week midwife appointment. If I'd had my wits about me I would have recorded it for Ray (and you!)

So far so good.


Do you want to know the sex?*




*she wrote, dragging out the tease!

Small victories

Actually it feels like a huge victory.

I've been swimming for the second time this pregnancy and it felt ok.

When I was pregnant with George I had fantasies of floating whale-like in a state of relaxed bliss, bobbing around in the warm water. In reality it felt wrong, uncomfortable and miserable. I started bleeding again not long after leaving the pool. I was about 16 weeks along then and I remember another trip to the hospital and another scan where they couldn't find the problem, but George was fine. In hindsight, of course, something was going terribly wrong and getting wronger by the day.

Today it felt odd at first. The buoyancy of my body has changed and my bum seems to want to float out of the water now but after a while it felt ok. I swam a few lengths (no more 20 length sessions I fear!) and then my mum and I went into the warm pool and bobbed around for a while. (And of course I checked for blood the rest of the afternoon - none).

I hope to carry on swimming. I hope to carry on being pregnant.

And no, I still haven't thought of a nick-name for this little one yet and yes, we know the sex*!

Oh and I've added the floaty baby counter thing in a fit of optimism.



*I know, I'm a terrible tease!

Five good things

I'm pregnant.
I'm pregnant.
I'm pregnant.
I'm pregnant.
I'm pregnant.


What good things found you last week? Please join in?

One small miracle in the making

Goodness, has it been that long?.

It's been difficult not to tell you. I wanted you to know; you are my support system. If you're still out there?

Today I am 14w 4d pregnant.

I'm scared, elated, stunned, and every emotion you might think of. All at once.

And until last Tuesday we were very scared of test results. I had a cvs test the Friday before after swearing that I would never ever ever do it again ever. But they gave us scary odds, even after a wonderful 12 week ultrasound where baby was wriggling and jumping and waving and chewing and kicking and had a "normal" nuchal measurement. My phone rang that Tuesday afternoon while I was sitting in the car waiting for Ray to pay for petrol and the results say no this, that and the other. He came back to see me smiling and crying. And then we went and told my Mum about the baby and she smiled and cried too. I take after her, you know.

I'm breathing again now. Waiting for my appetite to come back and trying just being pregnant again after switching off and going into limbo for four days.

We had ultrasounds at 8 and 10 weeks too and while Ray and I squeezed each others hand in trepidation, all was well. Baby seems so much more active than George was but maybe that's just wishful hoping. I would almost swear I can already feel it. Or it might be gas, most likely gas, I have a lot of that too.

I wasn't going to say anything to anyone until at least 21 weeks lest I jinx the whole affair but we don't believe in that sort of rot now do we? Besides we simply can't keep it in any longer!

We are very very cautiously optimistic at this point but we have such a long way to go so your good thoughts would be much appreciated.


If you would like to, you can see the ultrasound pics from 12 weeks here.


Oh yes, and we're not "out" on FB yet.